Start of book 2. Intro...

Hey, it's Hannah. My life is a complicated tangle of webs, that join, and brake, and i'm never very sure which direction to take on the web(otherwise known as life). Spiders are so much better at it than i am.

Well it's just after christmas, and i'm visiting Mel this morning, to see how she is.

When i arrived, i just walked in, coz i knew where Mel would be, slumped across the couch, with about 3 chocolate bars, and a bananna. Oh, My God! she is getting bigger each day, we might need to start the plan soon, you know the one where, Mel is to sick, and so she has to stay off school. Oh life is tricky, and it gets harder with age...

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Book 2, called 'Together forever' will be up soon.
Starting Febuary 1st....

Chapter 10. Mel's secret unfolds

That morning, on Septemer 10th Mel called. She sounded scared.

"Hello?" i asked, half asleep. she called so early.

"Oh My Gosh! Hannah, help me!" she was panicing.

This woke me up, "WHAT WHAT!?" i said.

"umm...okay....my tummy....has grown, i am fat!" she said, angry.

"Um...how could you suddenly be fat, after being so bloody skinny!" i lauhged.

"Well, i had been eatin so much chocolate lately, it isn;t funny how much i have been eating, i just feel like i need it!" she said ashamed.

"Umm...well excersise then..." i said, kinda stating the obvious.

"Yeah, sorry i woke you up....well you can come over if you want, now that your up!" she said, clearly wanting me over.

"Yeah sure!" then we hung up.

I walked to hers, and found her with a chocolate bar, in her hands, as i walked in. Oh god! something was very different about her, first her had had gone curly, and her tummy did look bigger, but not in a fat way, more like a balloon, but only the start of it blowing up.

"Ummm....Mel, i don't think your fat!" i said, eyeing her suspiciously.

"Well look at this!" she pointed to her tummy. and i laughed.

"Umm....sorry, i am not laughing at you!" i said, holding in the laughter.

"Well, what do you think it is then?" she looked at me worriedly.

"Umm....hate to say this mel, but...i think...your...pregnant!" then i shrugged.

"WHAT!? oh god, oh god!, i never thought about that, shit, shit , shit, my mum will kill me, and now that you mention that, it does explain the vometing, and stuff, i have been having morning sickness, crap, crap, crap!" she was panicing again, and i mean she had a great reason, i knew she was pregnant.

"You better tell Thomas, phone him!" i said.

"Yes, what if he brakes up with me because of it?" she said, then started getting watery eyes.

"Aww Mel, if he does, then he isn;t worth it!" i said. then hugged her.

"Yeah, okay i shall call him, stay in here with me though, please?" she said, poor mel.

SHe called, he picked up. "Hey!" i heard her say.

Mel's phone call:

"Okay Thomas, well, basically, i'm....pregnant, and it's yours!" she said, trying not to cry, then it burst, she started crying, well more sobbing. It was too late to kill it, because there was a slight lump in her.

"Oh, thanksyou Thomas, i love you, your so understnading!" she said, then smiled to me. That was a good sign.

"Bye, i love you, cya in 10!" she said, then hung up.

"So, whats happening?" i asked.

"Well he wants to stay with me, and he is happy, but we are a bit stumped about the hole school thing, and telling our parents!" she said, suddenly full of panic again.

"Yeah, well i am here for you!" i said soothingly.

"Owch!" she said then grabbed her tummy, then she ran to the toilet.

"Mel!? are you okay?" i stumbled over her rug, then fell over. Ben appearred and helped me up.

"Thanks!" i said.

"No problem! where;s mel?" he asked.

"Umm...err...uhh...toilet!" i said, then looked down, i hated stuttering. He pulled my face up, i pulled away. I went to the toilet door, "Mel, you okay??" i asked.

"Umm...." she trailed off. I hear Mel throw up. Yuk, i walked awya and sat on the couch. Ben sat next to me.

"Hi" i said.

"Hello!" he waved. i laughed.

He was so funny, and nice.ummm wait i shouldn't be saying this, this was Mel's brother. Mel came out, she was all sweaty.

"wow, mel you look bad, Hannah whats wrong with her?" he asked me, because he knew something was up.

"Umm...." i said, thats all i could say.

Mel looked at me saying, tell him he will understnad.

"Okay, look, ben, Mel is pregnant." i said, then bit my lip.

"Ooh! Mel, WHat are you gonna do?" he asked her.

"Umm...i dunno, i want it, and so does Thomas, but mum and dad, will hate me, and probably kick me out!" she said sadly.

"Well then you can come stay with me!" i said.

"Yeah! well, can i just live with you now?" Ben said.

I laughed, so much i almost peed. I went into the toilet, and then walked out saying "MUCH BETTER!" i laughed, so did Ben.

When i got home, i told mum.

"OH My! honey, umm...what is she going to do?" she said, worried.

"Well Thomas, and her want the baby, and they want it together, but her parents won't like that much!" i said.

"Yeah! well, has she told her mum and dad yet?" she asked softly.

"Umm..no, thats tonight!" i said, looking worried.

"Oh, well, i will talk to her mum after, and try to make things right, i mean i had you at 21, so she is 17, umm okay that won;t work!" she started talking to herself at the end.

"Yeah, well, hmm?" i said.

Then i walked down to the river with mel and Jess, now jess knew, but we wouldn't tell anyone else. This secret couldn't get out, it was far too big, we would just make Mel go to school until, she was to big them she would stay off, and say she was extremly ill. It could work, with enough friends around you, this could work out.

"So how did your parents react?" i asked really curiously.

"Umm...they are disapointed, but they will help me through it! and they are happy i told them!" she said, a bit happier, than earlier.

"Cool!" Jess and I said at the same time.

"So this is pretty big, Mel. Your having a baby with a guy, and your 17!" she pointed out, well it was obvious.

"I wonder if it will be male, or female?" i lauhged then.

"Or both!" I heard Ben say, from behind us. we all stopped then. Mel and Jess, walked home, and left me with him. great! Thanks girls!

"Hey!" he said.

"umm...hello!" i said

He grabbed me then and hugged me. "Ahhhh get off!" i pushed him away.

"What?" he asked.

"umm..i have a boyfriend!" i reminded him for the 3rd time.

Just then Jason appeared looking angry. uh oh! not this, this is not what i need right now.

"WHAT THE HELL, DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING!?" Jason yelled at Ben.

"Umm...we're friends, i hugged her!" he said innocently.

"RIGHT, LEAVE HER ALONE, IF I EVER CATCH YOU WITH HER AGAIN, YOU WILL BE SORRY!" he shouted.

"Jason, be nice, he didn't mean it like that!"I said. Even though he did mean it like that, but i didn't.

"C'MON!" he said to me, then grabbed my hand and pulled me away, i managed to sneek a look behind and mouth sorry to him. He smiled, and waved.

When Jason took me to his house he kissed me, and i kissed him back, i hadn't seen him for what...5 days, oh well lol. Now i had to be careful i didn't want to get Ben hurt, but i liked being around him, so i was going to see him again, even if it meant lying to my boyfriend.

So Mel was pregnant, Jess was still with Jake, and i wasn't aloud to see ben, Well more like he wasn't aloud to touch me. Hmmm? i could make this work.

When i got home, i heard the phone ring, i answered "Hello?" i said.

"Oh, thank god Hannah!" Jess said, happily.

"Umm yes" i said.

"Okay, i have really bad news!" she said, unhappily.

"Okay, lets hear it!" i said, bracing myself.

"Sophie was hit by a bus today, and has died. We don't know when she was hit, but she was found an hour ago." she said, then started crying.

"Awww, poor thing, oh her parents mum be devastated." i said, then started crying a little.

"Yeah, she was 16, turning 17 in october." she said unhappily.

"Well, sorry but i got to go now." i said then hung up.

So let me get my life straight. Mel was pregnant, Sophie was dead, and i wasn't aloud to see Ben. Great, how was i going to get through one problem, when i now had 3.

Chapter 9. August 3rd

Today was a cold day, quite a bad day, if you ask me. It was quiet in my house today, and we all knew why, well apart from Sam, but i think he knew...slightly. The reason behind all this, was that..this was the day....dad died. 4 years ago, it was wet a slipery outside, and dad was rushing home from work, to help mum with dinner, when he lost controll of the car, and hit a tree. When mum found out, it was over the phone, she went really white, as the blood rushed out from her face. Then the tears started. I was 14, and sam was 1, so i was holding him at the time. I quickly put him down on his little chair, and ran over to mum, i started hugging her, and she put her free arm around me. Once she had hung up on the phone, she put her head in her hands, and was sobbing.
I was asking her, the same question 5 times, before she told me. She said "I'm so sorry Hannah darling, but dad has died, in a car crash!" then she started sobbing again, but this time i joined, but i ran up to my room, and cried on my bed for several hours. See the thing was, i was always closer to dad, like i looked more like him, i had his brown hair, i even had his eye colour. We always spent his sunday off together, it didn't matter what we did, we played football, or we went out for lunch, but the thing i liked most about him was that, he listened, and he was always there for me. Mum was always busy with Sam, so i suppose thats when i grew up, thats when i knew, i had to look after myself now. Kind of sad, when you think about it, a 14 year old, realizing she has no-one. I mean sure i had mum, but i didn't have her as much as i would have liked, because she was always with Sam.
I decided to ring Mel, it rang 4 times. "Hello?" said Mel.
"Hey it's Hannah!" i said happily. "HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY! for the 29th of July!" i said, then i laughed.
She was on holiday for a while, so i could wish her a happy birhtday, so better late than never.
"Oh thanks!" she laughed. But she sounded different.
"Um...are you alright?" i asked worried.
"Yes" she said, i could tell she was lying.
"Mel, tell me the truth" i said strongly.
"You sound sad, whats wrong?" she changed the subject, and it was true, today wasn't my favourite day, And it never would.
"Um...nothing.." i paused, wondering if i could say it, without crying, i still wasn;t over it. "Okay, basically, it;s the say when my dad died." I said, then held back the tears.
"Oh, i'm really sorry for asking!" she said apologeticly.
"It's okay...." i trailed off, coz i started getting tears in my eyes. "look, sorry i got to go now!" then i hung up.
I ran up stairs sobbing. Again. Mum came in.
"Honey, there, there, it's alright!" she soothed me, but it wasn;t working. she had gotten over it.
"No...IT ISN'T OKAY, IT NEVER WILL BE, I WILL NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN, AND THE LAST THING I SAID WAS....MMMMM" i shouted, the last thing i said was 'mmmmm' you know, my morning thing. He was leaving for work, and he always, said bye to me.
"Awwww, baby, calm down, it's okay. i know you were close with him, but it's okay, he is watching over us every day!" she said, then rubed my back.
I sighed, and the tears stopped. I sat up and hugged mum.
"Thanks!" i said, and smiled.
"Honey, i love you, and i am always here for you!" she said.
"Mum, i'm gonna call Mel, and ask if i can see her!" i said.
"Okay, have fun!" she said.
When i called she picked up straight away. "Hannah! HANNAH!" she screammed, "Are you alright?" she said again.
"Yeh, i am better now, can i come over?" i asked nicely.
"Yes, come now, i want to see you!" she said, then i heard Ben from the living room "And i do too!" he said. then i heard something smash, crap mel had thrown something at him.
"Mel don't hurt him!" i said.
"Meh, he deserves it! so come round soon!" she said then hung up.
I walked over, with my ipod playing, i started playing the music dad got me into, rock, he showed me this awesome band, and took me to a concert, they are called 'the white stripes'. They were a great band, but they could do with some bass.
when i arrived, i knocked, then Ben answered "Hey, how are you?" he asked.
"Meh, life sucks, you get used to it!" then i walked in.
"Hey hannah!" mel hugged me. then took me to her room.
"Hi" i said.
"So hows things?" she asked, trying to to hit any soft spots.
"Um...terrible..well i guess only for me, i am not over it, at all." i said, boringly.
"Oh, okay!" she said, i could tell she was putting something off.
"SO hows your life?" i asked, emphisizing your.
"Oh it's okay, umm...Thomas and i...um...you know, again" she said, then flushed a orangey-red colour.
"Oh...again..wow...um..having fun?" i said with a smile.
"Haha! um...yes, but this time, i am worried, i think, see thats the thing, i didn't think and now, i am worried..." she trailed off.
"um...safe?" i asked.
"Yes, yes, yes!" she said quickly. "But you know...." she said.
"Well, then what you worried...about?" i asked, suddenly really confussed.
"umm, i dunno, anything can happen!" she pointed out the obvious. "So have you and Jason?" she asked.
"Nope" we laughed.
"Okay, well Ben really likes you!" she pointed out the obvious, again.
"Okay...i know that, oh yeh he is 16 now, i see what you mean, and NO!" i said, i knew she was asking, if i liked him.
"okay, okay, i was just asking." she said with her hands up, like you were surrendering to a police officer.
Then after i got home, mum had made my favourite meal. Ckicken and chips, lol, i am so easily pleased. Mum made good chips, yum, they were so sofrt, but crunchy, they tasted great too.
I slept well that night, which i normally don't, but i had a weird dream, it was Mel and Thomas, they had something in their arms? WAIT, what? a baby turtle....umm...okay, that was just plain weird. What did this mean? Why was i dreaming about this?
"MORNING ALL, blah blah blah blah blah!" i didn;t catch the rest, it was my new alarm, it set the radio off in the morning.
"SHUT THE HELL UP!" i yelled at it.
Then my mobile rang, oh who could that be?
"Hello!" i said.
"Hey, wanna meet me at the river? " said Jess. "Mel's here too!" she said happily.
"Yes, give me 30 mins! I'm just up !" they laughed. gosh, what just coz i liked sleeping, oh crap, i am in a terrible mood.
"Sure sure!" they said.
I practicly, ran to the river, in a summer blue dress, the sun was out today. It had black flowers on it, and the dress was aqua blue, i really liked this dress.
"Hey girls!" i said, trying to be nice, and not take my mood out on them.
"Hi," Jess said.
Then i realized, they wanted to talk. Great, i just loved loads of girl talk.
"So blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah!" said Jess, i missed it all i was dazing off, while staring at the water.
"Yep!" Mel said, they looked at me, and then i realized Jess had asked a question. Opps!
"Huh? sorry i dazed off!" i said, a bit angry at myself.
"I said, do you wanna come over for a sleepover tonight?" jess said.
"Yep!" i said, they laughed.
That night at Jess's, we were sitting eating junk, while watching movies, then Mel said, "Have u got any Chocolate?"
"umm...yes, thanks for reminding me, we need to eat our way through that!" she laughed.
"OOHHH! yes, it's milk chocolate!" she said, then grabbed like 9 pieces, then ate them.
"umm...are you craving?" I said, eyeing her worriedly.
"NO, i love chocolate, i am NOT craving!" she said.
Jess whispered in my ear, "It's true, she loves chocolate!" she giggled.
"kay!" why was i nervous, i guess i just had a bad feeling.
When i went back home, mum was watching 'The tellytubbies' with Sam. He loved that show.
When i called Mel, to talk her, it rang 6 times, this was unusual.
"Hi!" said Ben.
"Oh hey, is Mel there?" i asked.
"um...well she is really sick, she has been throwing up and stuff, so i don't think she can talk!" he said. "but i could talk to you!" he offered.
"umm..thats great, but i got to go anyway, sorry Bye " then i hung up. Crap, i hope that wasn't harsh.
Well Mel was sick, oh dear, i wonder what she has?

Chapter 8. Forgotten

When i woke up, on that saturday morning, my alarm said '6th of june'. Hmmm? Something about that day rings a bell, But what? it was something obvious, something that was gonna cost me for forgetting. So anyway like any other morning i got up, had a shower, got changed into a black skirt, and a green top. I let my hair dry curly today. When i started to walk down stairs i heard the noise that stopped my heart, completly.
"HAPPY BIRFDAYS MUMMY!" sam called.
Shoot! how could i forget mum's birthday, when even Sam remembered. This is so bad of me. What do i do? I ran back up stairs not making a noise, i stuffed my bed with pillows and things to make them look like me. Then i grabbed my handbag, and climbed down out of the window. I couldn't tell mum i had forgotten her birthday!
Okay so i had $25 in my purse, that was surley enough to buy her a card, and a nice teady bear saying 'mum i love you'. I went into the nearest gift store, and bought a cute little card, and a nice teady bear, as i said before. It cost $21.95. Phew! i got her something, but that wasn't going to take the guilt away. I would just have to live with that.
When i arrived home, i had to climb back up the window, some cars passed giving me looks, i just ignored them. i put my bag down, and ran down stairs singing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!".
Then i handed her my gift.
"Oh, honey thanks, it;s lovely." she said thankfully.
Pfft it was shameful, actually. "Oh no problem mum!" i said, trying to lie.
Sam had made her a cute little card with her and Sam holding hands. Awww bless him.
"Sammy, i like what you got mummy!" i said, with a smile.
"You gots...her a nice, teady bear!" he said, then smiled.
So for now everything was going fine. Then as mum was leaving to get some shopping, the phone rang, so i waved her bye then ran to the phone.
"Hello?" i said.
"Hi!" said Jason.
"Oh, hey!" i laughed.
"How are you?" he asked.
"Guilty, terrible, stupid, what about yourself?" i said, sadly, i started to cry a little, but held it in.
"I am fine, but not anymore, whats wrong babe?" he said worriedly.
"Well, it's mum's birthday today, and i woke up and i had forgotten about it, completley. so i had to climb out a window, and run to a girft store. I feel awful!" when i turned round, i gasped, Mum was standing there, looking a bit red. "Got to go, bye !" i said quickly, then hung up.
She stood there, and the was bright red, i had never seen her so mad.
"Listen mum, I'm so sorry! I am so stupid!" i said, trying to calm her down.
".........*sighs*......WELL.....I JUST DON'T KNOW.....EITHER YOUR TOO BUSY TO REMEMBER ME, OR YOU JUST DON'T CARE!" she choked out the last line. then stormed off to her room, sam must be at grandma's and grandpa's.
I started sobbing, more like bawling, and ran to Jason;s house.
i rang the door bell, Jason answered.
"H...." he stopped before he could greet me. instead he just hugged me.
"There, there it's okay! shhh!" he started trying to calm me down, it didn't work so he walked me down to the river.
" I'm such a horrible person!" i managed to choke out.
"NOO! your not! you just forgot, it;s okay, just buy her some chocolates, and flowers and get her a sorry card!" he soothed me, but i had already socked his t-shirt.
"Yes, i am horrible, one thing i have donw wrong, now 2 things, i have stuffed up your shirt, it;s all wet!" i let the last of my tears fall down my cheeks then it stopped.
"Meh, don't worry about me. I have never ever seen you so upset!" he looked down at me sadly.
"So i deseve getting run over by a bus right now!" i said, upset again. but i held it back.
"Shhhh! calm down, he hugged me tighter, and then he gave me a tissue. "This might be handy" he said and smiled. I smiled back
"thanks!" i said. i blew my noise, and wiped my eyes and cheeks. He was the best boyfriend ever.
"Your the best Jason!" i said, and grinned.
"Your better!" he said.
He took my back to his house, and i went to the toilet to clean up. Gosh! my eyes were still slightly red, and my nose was red, i looked like rudolf the red nosed raindeer. Oh well not to worry.
When i walked into the room, he grabbed me and hugged me so tight. He was warm, so wamr it was hard to let go.
"mmmm this is nice, i love you!" he said.
" yes, i love you." i said, the smelt in. GEEZ! he smelt good.
"You smell nice!" i said, "I mean really really nice" i said again.
"umm...thanlyou, you smell great!" then he pulled away and bent down to kiss me, it was quick, but sweet. I didn't want to leave.
"You can stay or go" he said, saying the word stay slowly.
"i'm not sure what to do!" i said, hoplessly.
"How about i walk you to the shop and u buy her a sorry card and stuff?" he asked.
"Yes, thats probably wise!" i said, thankfully.
As we walked, he had his hand around my waist this time, he had never walked with me this way before, i liked it. A lot.
I bought mum, a sorry card, and some flowers.
"they are nice, she will like them!" he said.
"Yes, she will! Oh! wow, look those roses are so nice!" i liked roses.
"hmm? lets get you back!" then he took my waist again, and we walked to my house, well i shall see you later!" he said then kissed me a nice romantic kiss.
i walked quietly into mum;s room. "Happy Birtday mum! i got you these!" i just put them next to her bed, and walked away. Before i walked out the door she said "Honey, wait! I'm sorry, i was really harsh, it;s just, my birthdays bring back bad memories, and so i am always a bit, scary on them!" she laughed. "THANKS!" she cried.
"umm..no problem, i just had to make it right!" i said cheerfully.
"Oh dear, you have been crying a lot! Sorry!" she smiled apologeticly.
"Doesn't matter!" i said.
" You know Hannah, your growing up so fast these days, and your beautiful, i am not just being buyist!" she laughed, then i laughed.
"Thanks!" i said, then walked out.
So things were back into place, with everyone. I called Jason to tell him.
"Hey Hannah!" he said.
"Hey! mum, is happy again!" i said happily.
"Good!" he said.
"Thanks as well, you help me all the time, and i never really say thanks! but thanks for everything, your the best!" i said.
"I love you Hannah!" he said.
"I love you more!" then i hung up.
Life was great at the moment, but knowing me, something was going to slip on toe out of line, adn everything would stuff up. Again.