I decided it was time to see Ellie, i hadn't seen her in about 3 weeks. Wow. I'm a great friend. Not.
I let myself in, she gave me a key. It was covered in smiley faces, she made it herself. Gosh.she was smart. Little miss Ellie Smarty Pants wins the mega trophy. Right. anyway.
I heard noises from upstairs, i walked up slowly. Hmm? weird. Ben and Ellie were still tight, and we rarely apart.
I walked into her room, I gasped.
"Umm..." i said, backing out, "Sorry....eh...er!" then i went to sit on the stairs.
I had just walked in on Ellie, and Ben having sex, Oh, my god! I must be whiter than a sheet of paper, coz i sure felt it.
3 minutes later Ellie walked out wearing his t-shirt, and boxers. What the hell, did he live her too?
"Ummm" she blushed, "Sorry about that!" she smiled.
"It's.....scary, but fine" i laughed.
she laughed, her giggly laugh, it was so cute. Very much like she is.
"Yeah, um, so how are you?" she asked, trying to change the subject.
"Oh, right, um, shocked, crappy, and life sucks!" i said, then hugged her. She hugged back.
"oh, whys you feels like thats?" i loved the way she spoke, it was so funny.
I smiled, "well my mum has a new boyfriend, he is horrible, they are engaged, and don't tell anyone this but i had sex with Andrew, so i don't know what to do" i started crying.
She rubbed my back, "Sex? Fiancee?........Wow" she smiled, Why did you....be naughty with andy pandy?" she asked swaying casually.
"We got drunk, Never drink Vondka" i said, then sighed.
There was silence for a while, i broke it.
"I think i'm in love with him" i said, then blushed.
She stared at me shocked, "WHAT!?"
"You.No.Jason. Love. Andrew. No.No.How?" she looked worried.
"I just do, we connect so well" i smiled. then blushed.
"Right, yes, thats true, but what about Jason?" she asked.
"Now you see my problem, I don't want to marry him" i blurted out.
"Oh, deary me" she sighed, "Life is harsh, and life is cruel, but there is always ways around things, even if they seem impossible!"
"mmm" i mumbled.
After i left, i saw Ben leave too.
I waved, he came over to me, "Hey hannah, it;s bee n so long since i've seen you!" he said.
"Yes, it has, sorry" i laughed.
"It's fine, i miss you though" he smiled. I hugged him, he hugged back.
I walked to Jess's house, i needed to see her too.
I knocked on the door, Dave answered, "Hey Hanny".
Jess appeared "HHAAAANNNNAAAHHHHH!" she screamed, and lept forward to hug me.
"JESS! how are you?" i asked.
" Great, look!" she showed me something on the floor.
"Oh, my god. You got a dog!" i yelled, "Whats it name?"
"Sammy, like your brother, i love that kid!" she smiled.
"Yes, so do i, that reminds me, i better go pick him up and take him to my grandparents house" i said, "Bye jess, and Dave".
I walked over to my new house, i got Sam and some of his clothes, and toys.
"Sam's staying at our grandparents for a while!" i yelled then took him to the car.
"Thankyou Hannah!" he smiled at me.
"No problem....Jam!" i laughed, he laughed too.
I put on the radio as we drove up, I was singing along, and sam was dancing.
As soon as i dropped Sam off, and told them one of my excuses, about him not seeing them for a while. I could tell that they new something was wrong. Whatever.
I went to Andrew i had to tell him. I had to.
I let myself in, the door was open, i heard his mum asking where the Vodka had went. She was just mumbling to herself.
"Hey Hannah, Thingo's in his room!" she laughed.
i laughed too. "Kay, thanks" i smiled.
I went up slowly thinking of what i could say.
I knocked, "Mmmm hmmm?" Andy asked.
"It's me, Hannah" i said, nervously. Maybe he didn't want to see me again!
"Yay, come in honey!" he said. Phew he did want to see me again. I was expecting a 'go away', or something.
I walked in, and sat on his bed, I crossed my legs.
"Sorry, for running out on you the other day" i said, then completly regreted saying that.
"Oh, it;s fine. " he laughed, "Are you gonna stay?" he asked, i could hear him trying to hide the begging in his voice.
"Yes, i shall" i smiled. He smiled back.
Suddenly his screen flashed a blue colour and i reached for the mouse to click it, but he did to, our hands touched, and we both blushed. lol. Akward-ness.
"Sorry" i mumbled.
He laughed. I moved closer to see what he was doing on the computer, he was msn-ing. lol.
"MSN!" i said in a weird voice. He laughed.
We both turned our heads to each other, we were so close. We just gazed into each others eyes for a minute, then he moved in closer. He kissed me, i kissed back, we ended up kissing for ages, and then i pushed it further, i moved my tounge to open his mouth, and he let me. YAY. we kissed and kissed, until i realized what i was doing.
I pulled away, i felt my face get hot, "Sorry" i said embarassed.
"I Love You" he said, then pulled me in again and kissed me more.
i got a breath, "What?" i asked stupidly.
He laughed. "I Love You" he said, then started playing with a lose stand of my hair.
I was silent for a long time. Andy loved me, and i love him.
"I love you" i said back, then felt guilty.
We smiled at each other.
"Hannah?" he asked.
"Yes?" i answered.
"I really do love you, and i want you to be mine, not Jason's, you deserve better than him, i'm sorry but you do!" he said, ashamed that he told me that.
"I know, and I really love you, and have for a while, but i was worried you wouldn't love me back! I don't want to marry jason, and i will tell him tonight!" i said, then fainted.
Blackout. Great. I think my body couldn't handle the thoughts.
it must have been 10 minutes later, i woke up and realized i was in Andy's bed. Right.
"Andy?" i asked. i was tired.
"Yes?" he asked, oh right he was beside me.
"What time is it?" i asked stupidly.
"Umm, 1:04am, lol, you fainted then fell asleep" he laughed.
"Right, sorry" i said, then laughed.
I then realized i was curled up with him, i moved over, then his hand pulled me back.
"Hey, your warm, stay!" he said, then muffled his laughter.
"Yes, sure, I love you" then i opened my eyes shocked, "Uhh.Umm....." i trailed off.
He laughed, " I told you i love you more!" he smiled, i could just seem him.
He kissed me. I shouldn't be doing this but i kissed him back.
"I guess i will tell Jason tomorrow" i laughed, "I mean today" i laughed again, mostly at my stupidity.
The next day, i went over to Jason's.
"Hey hon-" he stopped, and realized i had to tell him something, "What is it babe?" he asked.
"Umm, okay, don't get mad" i said, then my eyes started to water a bit. I was going to brake his heart.
"awww, babe" he rubbed my back.
"I, I....I'm in love with Andrew, and i can't marry you!" i said then slide the ring off my finger, I held onto it tight.
He looked startled and shocked, "WHAT!?"
I was silent. I cryed some more.
"Right, okay, fine, i always thought you were strange, and couldn't make choises, well you can but just not good ones!" He yelled, he was mad, damn it.
"Well i'm sorry, but i can't help it, i really loved you, but then i loved Andy more" i said, starting to cry some more.
"Well, he is no good for you, he is a gaybo!" he yelled.
"WHAT THE HELL! you r the gaybo, you big noob. Don't you dare insult my best friend!" i yelled back at him.
"Oh, your best friend" he used the hand signs., "You meant secret boyfriend!"
"Get lost, i hate you Jason, your a really horrible guy, i thought you were different!" i said, then through the ring at him and stormed off crying.
I went to the bus stop, i got on the next bus, i didn't know where i was going or if i would come back, i glanced back at Jason. He was in so much pain. Before the bus left, i got off again. It was stupid to run away. I went to the river, i fell asleep there, and when i woke up, i heard people shouting my name it was Andrew.
"Over here!" i yelled.
"Hey!" he smiled.
Oh, andrew had been beaten up punched, he now had a black eye, and a cut face.
"What happened?" i asked. i got up and hugged him.
"Jason, almost killed me, He really loves you, you should Marry him!" he said, he was trying to be nice.
"No, that jerk can piss off, he was so mean to me!" i said, then started crying, this was all my fault, and i hated myself for it.
"Hannah?" he asked, "Will you be my girlfriend?"
"Did you even have to ask, of course i will, i love you more than anything!" i smiled,
SO i had a boyfriend, and i loved him. I had made Jason almost kill Andrew, and i had also made Andrew hurt. Great, back to quare one, my like sucks.
I let myself in, she gave me a key. It was covered in smiley faces, she made it herself. Gosh.she was smart. Little miss Ellie Smarty Pants wins the mega trophy. Right. anyway.
I heard noises from upstairs, i walked up slowly. Hmm? weird. Ben and Ellie were still tight, and we rarely apart.
I walked into her room, I gasped.
"Umm..." i said, backing out, "Sorry....eh...er!" then i went to sit on the stairs.
I had just walked in on Ellie, and Ben having sex, Oh, my god! I must be whiter than a sheet of paper, coz i sure felt it.
3 minutes later Ellie walked out wearing his t-shirt, and boxers. What the hell, did he live her too?
"Ummm" she blushed, "Sorry about that!" she smiled.
"It's.....scary, but fine" i laughed.
she laughed, her giggly laugh, it was so cute. Very much like she is.
"Yeah, um, so how are you?" she asked, trying to change the subject.
"Oh, right, um, shocked, crappy, and life sucks!" i said, then hugged her. She hugged back.
"oh, whys you feels like thats?" i loved the way she spoke, it was so funny.
I smiled, "well my mum has a new boyfriend, he is horrible, they are engaged, and don't tell anyone this but i had sex with Andrew, so i don't know what to do" i started crying.
She rubbed my back, "Sex? Fiancee?........Wow" she smiled, Why did you....be naughty with andy pandy?" she asked swaying casually.
"We got drunk, Never drink Vondka" i said, then sighed.
There was silence for a while, i broke it.
"I think i'm in love with him" i said, then blushed.
She stared at me shocked, "WHAT!?"
"You.No.Jason. Love. Andrew. No.No.How?" she looked worried.
"I just do, we connect so well" i smiled. then blushed.
"Right, yes, thats true, but what about Jason?" she asked.
"Now you see my problem, I don't want to marry him" i blurted out.
"Oh, deary me" she sighed, "Life is harsh, and life is cruel, but there is always ways around things, even if they seem impossible!"
"mmm" i mumbled.
After i left, i saw Ben leave too.
I waved, he came over to me, "Hey hannah, it;s bee n so long since i've seen you!" he said.
"Yes, it has, sorry" i laughed.
"It's fine, i miss you though" he smiled. I hugged him, he hugged back.
I walked to Jess's house, i needed to see her too.
I knocked on the door, Dave answered, "Hey Hanny".
Jess appeared "HHAAAANNNNAAAHHHHH!" she screamed, and lept forward to hug me.
"JESS! how are you?" i asked.
" Great, look!" she showed me something on the floor.
"Oh, my god. You got a dog!" i yelled, "Whats it name?"
"Sammy, like your brother, i love that kid!" she smiled.
"Yes, so do i, that reminds me, i better go pick him up and take him to my grandparents house" i said, "Bye jess, and Dave".
I walked over to my new house, i got Sam and some of his clothes, and toys.
"Sam's staying at our grandparents for a while!" i yelled then took him to the car.
"Thankyou Hannah!" he smiled at me.
"No problem....Jam!" i laughed, he laughed too.
I put on the radio as we drove up, I was singing along, and sam was dancing.
As soon as i dropped Sam off, and told them one of my excuses, about him not seeing them for a while. I could tell that they new something was wrong. Whatever.
I went to Andrew i had to tell him. I had to.
I let myself in, the door was open, i heard his mum asking where the Vodka had went. She was just mumbling to herself.
"Hey Hannah, Thingo's in his room!" she laughed.
i laughed too. "Kay, thanks" i smiled.
I went up slowly thinking of what i could say.
I knocked, "Mmmm hmmm?" Andy asked.
"It's me, Hannah" i said, nervously. Maybe he didn't want to see me again!
"Yay, come in honey!" he said. Phew he did want to see me again. I was expecting a 'go away', or something.
I walked in, and sat on his bed, I crossed my legs.
"Sorry, for running out on you the other day" i said, then completly regreted saying that.
"Oh, it;s fine. " he laughed, "Are you gonna stay?" he asked, i could hear him trying to hide the begging in his voice.
"Yes, i shall" i smiled. He smiled back.
Suddenly his screen flashed a blue colour and i reached for the mouse to click it, but he did to, our hands touched, and we both blushed. lol. Akward-ness.
"Sorry" i mumbled.
He laughed. I moved closer to see what he was doing on the computer, he was msn-ing. lol.
"MSN!" i said in a weird voice. He laughed.
We both turned our heads to each other, we were so close. We just gazed into each others eyes for a minute, then he moved in closer. He kissed me, i kissed back, we ended up kissing for ages, and then i pushed it further, i moved my tounge to open his mouth, and he let me. YAY. we kissed and kissed, until i realized what i was doing.
I pulled away, i felt my face get hot, "Sorry" i said embarassed.
"I Love You" he said, then pulled me in again and kissed me more.
i got a breath, "What?" i asked stupidly.
He laughed. "I Love You" he said, then started playing with a lose stand of my hair.
I was silent for a long time. Andy loved me, and i love him.
"I love you" i said back, then felt guilty.
We smiled at each other.
"Hannah?" he asked.
"Yes?" i answered.
"I really do love you, and i want you to be mine, not Jason's, you deserve better than him, i'm sorry but you do!" he said, ashamed that he told me that.
"I know, and I really love you, and have for a while, but i was worried you wouldn't love me back! I don't want to marry jason, and i will tell him tonight!" i said, then fainted.
Blackout. Great. I think my body couldn't handle the thoughts.
it must have been 10 minutes later, i woke up and realized i was in Andy's bed. Right.
"Andy?" i asked. i was tired.
"Yes?" he asked, oh right he was beside me.
"What time is it?" i asked stupidly.
"Umm, 1:04am, lol, you fainted then fell asleep" he laughed.
"Right, sorry" i said, then laughed.
I then realized i was curled up with him, i moved over, then his hand pulled me back.
"Hey, your warm, stay!" he said, then muffled his laughter.
"Yes, sure, I love you" then i opened my eyes shocked, "Uhh.Umm....." i trailed off.
He laughed, " I told you i love you more!" he smiled, i could just seem him.
He kissed me. I shouldn't be doing this but i kissed him back.
"I guess i will tell Jason tomorrow" i laughed, "I mean today" i laughed again, mostly at my stupidity.
The next day, i went over to Jason's.
"Hey hon-" he stopped, and realized i had to tell him something, "What is it babe?" he asked.
"Umm, okay, don't get mad" i said, then my eyes started to water a bit. I was going to brake his heart.
"awww, babe" he rubbed my back.
"I, I....I'm in love with Andrew, and i can't marry you!" i said then slide the ring off my finger, I held onto it tight.
He looked startled and shocked, "WHAT!?"
I was silent. I cryed some more.
"Right, okay, fine, i always thought you were strange, and couldn't make choises, well you can but just not good ones!" He yelled, he was mad, damn it.
"Well i'm sorry, but i can't help it, i really loved you, but then i loved Andy more" i said, starting to cry some more.
"Well, he is no good for you, he is a gaybo!" he yelled.
"WHAT THE HELL! you r the gaybo, you big noob. Don't you dare insult my best friend!" i yelled back at him.
"Oh, your best friend" he used the hand signs., "You meant secret boyfriend!"
"Get lost, i hate you Jason, your a really horrible guy, i thought you were different!" i said, then through the ring at him and stormed off crying.
I went to the bus stop, i got on the next bus, i didn't know where i was going or if i would come back, i glanced back at Jason. He was in so much pain. Before the bus left, i got off again. It was stupid to run away. I went to the river, i fell asleep there, and when i woke up, i heard people shouting my name it was Andrew.
"Over here!" i yelled.
"Hey!" he smiled.
Oh, andrew had been beaten up punched, he now had a black eye, and a cut face.
"What happened?" i asked. i got up and hugged him.
"Jason, almost killed me, He really loves you, you should Marry him!" he said, he was trying to be nice.
"No, that jerk can piss off, he was so mean to me!" i said, then started crying, this was all my fault, and i hated myself for it.
"Hannah?" he asked, "Will you be my girlfriend?"
"Did you even have to ask, of course i will, i love you more than anything!" i smiled,
SO i had a boyfriend, and i loved him. I had made Jason almost kill Andrew, and i had also made Andrew hurt. Great, back to quare one, my like sucks.
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