Geez, what what is wrong with the world, seriously. I mean it;s either freezing like today, or too hot. Stupid weather, why can;t it just be like sims2 weather, it is light, then night, not cold or warm, just perfect.
I walked down stairs, "Hi mum!" i said, then smiled stupidly. I was in a weird mood, not quiet myself.
She was on the phone, Hmm?
She saw me and said "Oh, sorry darling, i gotta go now, bye!" then she hung up.
Darling!? riight.
"Who was that?" I asked curiously.
"Oh, just Sue, how are you?" she asked. clearly changing the subject.
"Fine, but very curious..." i starded towards the coffee table, she had notes all over it. "What are they...for?" i asked, what was mum up to?
"Uhh. Nothing, can you wacth Sam tonight? I'm going out with Daine." she asked, with a smile. Daine? never heard it before, hmm? maybe sue's friend.
"Kay, sure" DAMN, i wanted to go out tonight, with friends, hmm? maybe they could come over, and party with Sam, haha, lol, i crack myself up.
When mum left that night, she looked really pretty, glamorously dressed in a nice black dress, and makeup, and jewellery.
"Wow, you look lovely!" i said, then smiled. "Turn around, let me see you!"
Mum laughed. Then i laughed. She went outside and drove off.
"SAM, WHERE ARE YOU?" i yelled.
"Here, boo!" he said, from under the table, awww.
"I SEE YOU!" i said, then the door opened. WHAT!
I grabbed Sam and put him on my back, "Hello, who is it?" what a stupid question to ask.
"Uhh...The Evil fairy" Ellie, said, then Sam screamed. Opps!
"Oh, sorry sam, it;s just me Ellie!" she said, then grabbed him and spun him around.
"Again, again!" Sam said.
"Umm..maybe later, i think spongebob's on!" she said, then he watched that.
"Hey ellie" i said.
"Hey hey hey, supp, supp, ma hommie?" she said, then put her cap on backwards. I laughed.
I loved Ellie, she was so funny, and nice, we got on so well, we were like sisters.
"I thought i would come see you!" she smiled.
"Yay, i like my age company as much as 5 year olds" i smiled back.
"RIGHT SAM, BED TIME!" i said loudly.
"No, i wanna stay up with Ellie, and you!" he said, then rubbed his eyes. He was so tired.
"Well, me and Ellie are going to sleep in ur room!" we said, then ran upstairs.
"WAIT FOR ME!" sam yelled up the stairs.
We sat next to him, and pretended to sleep, then he fell asleep. Ellie left after that, and i went into my room.
I played My chemical Romance loudly quiet, so that i didn't wake sam up. After the cd had finished, i got ready for bed, then i sat on my bed, and just sat there thinking, about everything.
After about 5 minutes, i heard a car pull up, it must be mum, yay. i can go to bed. lol.
Then i heard a laugh, and it wasn;t mums, i peeked out my window. WHO WAS THAT!?
"Oh, Harry, I LOVE YOU!" i heard mum say loudly, then they kissed lots, and i looked away...eww gross, mum kissing some man, i would have to talk to her about this, but maybe in the morning, it sounded like she was a little drunk.
Then it hit me. MUM WAS DATING SOMEONE, PLUS SHE DIDN'T TELL ME! AND I DIDN'T WANT ANY OTHER MAN IN MY LIFE, EXPECIALLY NOT, LIVING AS A FAMILY.
The next morning i didn't get up, i stayed in bed, until it must have been about 1pm, coz mum came through. Great, just ther person i need right now. Uhhh.
"Honey bunny, get up now!" she said, then walked away.
just before she left my room, i said, " NO" then i turned my back to the room, and faced the wall.
"YES, NOW!, i think there is someone at the door for you!" she said.
"I DON'T CARE!" i was in a terrible mood today.
She left, then I sighed. I got up and and went to the door, in my emily the strange pj's, and socks. Before i opened the door, i looked in the mirror, i looked presentable, lol.
I opened the door, and there was Andrew standing there.
".........hi." i said, then looked down.
"umm....hello, are you alright, and tut tut, your still in bed" he joked.
I laughed. "No, i'm feeling rather crap, actually." i sighed.
"Oh, well wanna talk about it in a min?" he said. he knew i would want to change.
"Yeah, wait here!" i said, then ran up stairs.
I put on a skirt, and a blue top, it said, 'Hey, I'm lame, deal!'. I thought it was the right top for my mood today, which was, i hate my life, and i am a lame-oo.
I ran downstairs and went to the river with Andrew.
"So whats the problem?" he asked kindly.
"Umm...I think my mum has a boyfriend..." it started then, what i mean is the sobbing.
He patted my back, and rubbed the tears off of my cheek, "Thanks!" i said, then kept walking.
"No problem, you know....umm..this might sound lame, but i think your my best friend!" he said, then smiled.
"Umm, well your my guy bestie" i said. he had managed to change the subject. Woop! go andrew.
When i got home, and Sam was in bed, i went through to mum in the living room, she was eating cheese-puffs. Mmm, they smelt good.
"Right, you have some explaning to do!" i said, then glared at her.
"Oh, umm..about what?" she asked, understanding ever so slightly what i was meaning.
"ABOUT THE....UMM...THING, YOU KISSED HIM LAST NIGHT, AND IT LOOKS TO ME LIKE YOUR GOING OUT!" i yelled.
"Shhh, don't wake sam!"
"OH I WILL WAKE SAM, BECAUSE I AM NOT JUST MAD, I AM FURIOUS!" i was getting her good here. she had no explanations.
"Umm....well...you see.." she trailed off, waiting for my next screaming sestion.
"YOU SEE-NOTHING! I DON'T WANNA HEAR IT, I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WOULDN'T TELL ME, AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHH!" i stormed off, out the house.
I didn't know where i was going, or what i was doing, but i went to the river, and sobbed my heart out. I had justed yelled at my mother, fot selfish reasons, and i didn't care, i was sad, because i didn't want another guy in my family, enless for me. More selfishness. I HATE MYSELF!
At about midnight, i wandered to andrews house, and when he opened the door, he gasped "Oh Hannah, what happened, you don't look happy!" he said, then grabbed me for a hug. I hugged back, he was warm, and it was so cold.
"I....I...hate everything" i said. then tears burst out over my eyes and flooded down my face.
"Awww, surely not everything, i mean you don't hate me!" he said, then smiled. When he laughed it shook down his body, and i felt it.
"Yeah," i laughed.
He made a bed for me at the side of his bed, and i slept there. Mum knew that if i didn;t come home, when i was mad, i was probably at a friends, but right now, all i cared about was...well NOTHING.
"Morning...might i add...sleeping beauty!" he smiled at me.
"Mmmmmorrrninggg!" i said, wow, that was the first time i had spoken properly in the morning since i was 11.
"What do you want to eat?" he asked. "Cereal, toast?"
"Umm.....a coffee?" i laughed.
"Yeah, sure, i want one too!" he smiled.
"Thanks..eh..for everything, accomodation, food, life coach, and comforting!" i smiled my big grin.
We laughed. He then suddenly picked me off the floor, and hugged me.
"Aww Hannah, Your the nicest, and funniest girl i've ever met!" he hugged so tightly.
"Can't....breath!" i gasped. "Tha....nkkss!"
"Oh, sorry" then he let go.
I laughed, then we ate toast together at his kitchen table, his house had such a nice feel to it.
"Umm..you know, your house is so nice!" i said, then smiled over the table. "And you too"
"yeh, i like it!" he smiled back.
I diceded to go home after that and change and stuff, but i wouldn't speak to mum. No.Matter.what.
I walked in, Sam hugged me, "Hey Sam!" i said, then went upstairs.
I changed into an aqua blue pair of jeans, and a new top, it was grey. It was covered in black paterns. Then i put on my blue converse.
I grabbed my handback, and purse, phone, keys, brush, toothbrush, a new top, and socks. and undies. I put them in my 'opsta' black bag. 'opsta' was my favourite brand of stuff. It was kinda rock/punk chick stuff. I also put some deoderant in the bag, i wouldn't want to be smelly.lol.
On my way to the bridge, i called Jason.
"Hey, where are you?" he asked panicly.
"France!" i laughed. "Nah, i am at the bridge! come meet me!" i said, then hung up.
10 minutes later Jason arrived, yum he smelt so good. Hmm? oh it was the birthday persent i gave him, yummy. We kissed.
"Hey babe!" he said, "Right, tell me...what the hell happened?" he asked, looking at me sadly.
"Hi, umm..I am not speaking to mum, coz she has a boyfriend, and didn't tell me, and she knows that i trust her and stuff, but i don't want anything to do with it, or her, and i know i'm being selfish!" i starting crying then.
he put one arm around me, and kissed my forehead. "Shhh! it's okay!" he soothed me.
"Can i stay at your place tonight?" i asked, with cute, wet eyes.
"Yes, yes, sure! I see you packed already!" he smiled.
"Yep, i am coming...now!" i laughed.
He put me on his back, and gave me a piggy back to his house.
"Umm...Jason how did you know, something happened to me?" i asked.
"Because, i called you 7 times, and you normally answer on the 4th time, or more, or less! And when you didn't i new you weren't okay!" he smiled, "So where did you stay last night?" he asked, curiously.
"Umm...Andrews, lol, he made a bed up for me, and his mum was so nice!" i smiled, my way of telling him nothing happened, or was going to. Hmm? Maybe.
"Okay" he said, then pulled me into his bedroom.
"Oh, you cut down the tree outside, now you can see the river!" i said, then realized that someone was sitting by the river, with a man. Awww how romantic --wait a minute, THATS MUM!
"Crap, thats mum, with her boyfriend! Thats it, i am meeting him, now!" i said, angrily, then walked out the house.
I stormed down stairs, and over to the river, "MUM, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!?" I glared at her. Then at...him.
"Oh, Hannah, this is Phil!" she said, as if i wasn't angry.
"SO?" i said, then looked away, i felt like a bratty teenager.
"Hi, I'm Phil, nice to meet you!" he said, his voice was deep. a little too deep for my liking, and he was hairy, meaning long sideburns, and stuff.
"UH-HUH! NOT NICE TO MEET YOU!" i yelled, then ran back to Jason's house.
"What. you. should.not.have.done.that!" Jason said, looking down at me upset.
"Oh, that, you heard that!" i said, ashamed at myself.
"Who couldn't hear it, it was loud enough for people in France to hear!" he said then smiled.lol i said i was in France on the phone, gosh he is good.
"What the hell were you thinking, now you have no-where to go, except here!" he said, then smiled.
I started crying "Okay, so i know everything is my fault, but i don't care, i HATE everything!" then i went to the bathroom and cryed my eyes out.
What was i going to do? Where would i go? I couldn't live off people!
uhhh. Life sucks, and i am serious, it gets harder with age.
I walked down stairs, "Hi mum!" i said, then smiled stupidly. I was in a weird mood, not quiet myself.
She was on the phone, Hmm?
She saw me and said "Oh, sorry darling, i gotta go now, bye!" then she hung up.
Darling!? riight.
"Who was that?" I asked curiously.
"Oh, just Sue, how are you?" she asked. clearly changing the subject.
"Fine, but very curious..." i starded towards the coffee table, she had notes all over it. "What are they...for?" i asked, what was mum up to?
"Uhh. Nothing, can you wacth Sam tonight? I'm going out with Daine." she asked, with a smile. Daine? never heard it before, hmm? maybe sue's friend.
"Kay, sure" DAMN, i wanted to go out tonight, with friends, hmm? maybe they could come over, and party with Sam, haha, lol, i crack myself up.
When mum left that night, she looked really pretty, glamorously dressed in a nice black dress, and makeup, and jewellery.
"Wow, you look lovely!" i said, then smiled. "Turn around, let me see you!"
Mum laughed. Then i laughed. She went outside and drove off.
"SAM, WHERE ARE YOU?" i yelled.
"Here, boo!" he said, from under the table, awww.
"I SEE YOU!" i said, then the door opened. WHAT!
I grabbed Sam and put him on my back, "Hello, who is it?" what a stupid question to ask.
"Uhh...The Evil fairy" Ellie, said, then Sam screamed. Opps!
"Oh, sorry sam, it;s just me Ellie!" she said, then grabbed him and spun him around.
"Again, again!" Sam said.
"Umm..maybe later, i think spongebob's on!" she said, then he watched that.
"Hey ellie" i said.
"Hey hey hey, supp, supp, ma hommie?" she said, then put her cap on backwards. I laughed.
I loved Ellie, she was so funny, and nice, we got on so well, we were like sisters.
"I thought i would come see you!" she smiled.
"Yay, i like my age company as much as 5 year olds" i smiled back.
"RIGHT SAM, BED TIME!" i said loudly.
"No, i wanna stay up with Ellie, and you!" he said, then rubbed his eyes. He was so tired.
"Well, me and Ellie are going to sleep in ur room!" we said, then ran upstairs.
"WAIT FOR ME!" sam yelled up the stairs.
We sat next to him, and pretended to sleep, then he fell asleep. Ellie left after that, and i went into my room.
I played My chemical Romance loudly quiet, so that i didn't wake sam up. After the cd had finished, i got ready for bed, then i sat on my bed, and just sat there thinking, about everything.
After about 5 minutes, i heard a car pull up, it must be mum, yay. i can go to bed. lol.
Then i heard a laugh, and it wasn;t mums, i peeked out my window. WHO WAS THAT!?
"Oh, Harry, I LOVE YOU!" i heard mum say loudly, then they kissed lots, and i looked away...eww gross, mum kissing some man, i would have to talk to her about this, but maybe in the morning, it sounded like she was a little drunk.
Then it hit me. MUM WAS DATING SOMEONE, PLUS SHE DIDN'T TELL ME! AND I DIDN'T WANT ANY OTHER MAN IN MY LIFE, EXPECIALLY NOT, LIVING AS A FAMILY.
The next morning i didn't get up, i stayed in bed, until it must have been about 1pm, coz mum came through. Great, just ther person i need right now. Uhhh.
"Honey bunny, get up now!" she said, then walked away.
just before she left my room, i said, " NO" then i turned my back to the room, and faced the wall.
"YES, NOW!, i think there is someone at the door for you!" she said.
"I DON'T CARE!" i was in a terrible mood today.
She left, then I sighed. I got up and and went to the door, in my emily the strange pj's, and socks. Before i opened the door, i looked in the mirror, i looked presentable, lol.
I opened the door, and there was Andrew standing there.
".........hi." i said, then looked down.
"umm....hello, are you alright, and tut tut, your still in bed" he joked.
I laughed. "No, i'm feeling rather crap, actually." i sighed.
"Oh, well wanna talk about it in a min?" he said. he knew i would want to change.
"Yeah, wait here!" i said, then ran up stairs.
I put on a skirt, and a blue top, it said, 'Hey, I'm lame, deal!'. I thought it was the right top for my mood today, which was, i hate my life, and i am a lame-oo.
I ran downstairs and went to the river with Andrew.
"So whats the problem?" he asked kindly.
"Umm...I think my mum has a boyfriend..." it started then, what i mean is the sobbing.
He patted my back, and rubbed the tears off of my cheek, "Thanks!" i said, then kept walking.
"No problem, you know....umm..this might sound lame, but i think your my best friend!" he said, then smiled.
"Umm, well your my guy bestie" i said. he had managed to change the subject. Woop! go andrew.
When i got home, and Sam was in bed, i went through to mum in the living room, she was eating cheese-puffs. Mmm, they smelt good.
"Right, you have some explaning to do!" i said, then glared at her.
"Oh, umm..about what?" she asked, understanding ever so slightly what i was meaning.
"ABOUT THE....UMM...THING, YOU KISSED HIM LAST NIGHT, AND IT LOOKS TO ME LIKE YOUR GOING OUT!" i yelled.
"Shhh, don't wake sam!"
"OH I WILL WAKE SAM, BECAUSE I AM NOT JUST MAD, I AM FURIOUS!" i was getting her good here. she had no explanations.
"Umm....well...you see.." she trailed off, waiting for my next screaming sestion.
"YOU SEE-NOTHING! I DON'T WANNA HEAR IT, I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WOULDN'T TELL ME, AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHH!" i stormed off, out the house.
I didn't know where i was going, or what i was doing, but i went to the river, and sobbed my heart out. I had justed yelled at my mother, fot selfish reasons, and i didn't care, i was sad, because i didn't want another guy in my family, enless for me. More selfishness. I HATE MYSELF!
At about midnight, i wandered to andrews house, and when he opened the door, he gasped "Oh Hannah, what happened, you don't look happy!" he said, then grabbed me for a hug. I hugged back, he was warm, and it was so cold.
"I....I...hate everything" i said. then tears burst out over my eyes and flooded down my face.
"Awww, surely not everything, i mean you don't hate me!" he said, then smiled. When he laughed it shook down his body, and i felt it.
"Yeah," i laughed.
He made a bed for me at the side of his bed, and i slept there. Mum knew that if i didn;t come home, when i was mad, i was probably at a friends, but right now, all i cared about was...well NOTHING.
"Morning...might i add...sleeping beauty!" he smiled at me.
"Mmmmmorrrninggg!" i said, wow, that was the first time i had spoken properly in the morning since i was 11.
"What do you want to eat?" he asked. "Cereal, toast?"
"Umm.....a coffee?" i laughed.
"Yeah, sure, i want one too!" he smiled.
"Thanks..eh..for everything, accomodation, food, life coach, and comforting!" i smiled my big grin.
We laughed. He then suddenly picked me off the floor, and hugged me.
"Aww Hannah, Your the nicest, and funniest girl i've ever met!" he hugged so tightly.
"Can't....breath!" i gasped. "Tha....nkkss!"
"Oh, sorry" then he let go.
I laughed, then we ate toast together at his kitchen table, his house had such a nice feel to it.
"Umm..you know, your house is so nice!" i said, then smiled over the table. "And you too"
"yeh, i like it!" he smiled back.
I diceded to go home after that and change and stuff, but i wouldn't speak to mum. No.Matter.what.
I walked in, Sam hugged me, "Hey Sam!" i said, then went upstairs.
I changed into an aqua blue pair of jeans, and a new top, it was grey. It was covered in black paterns. Then i put on my blue converse.
I grabbed my handback, and purse, phone, keys, brush, toothbrush, a new top, and socks. and undies. I put them in my 'opsta' black bag. 'opsta' was my favourite brand of stuff. It was kinda rock/punk chick stuff. I also put some deoderant in the bag, i wouldn't want to be smelly.lol.
On my way to the bridge, i called Jason.
"Hey, where are you?" he asked panicly.
"France!" i laughed. "Nah, i am at the bridge! come meet me!" i said, then hung up.
10 minutes later Jason arrived, yum he smelt so good. Hmm? oh it was the birthday persent i gave him, yummy. We kissed.
"Hey babe!" he said, "Right, tell me...what the hell happened?" he asked, looking at me sadly.
"Hi, umm..I am not speaking to mum, coz she has a boyfriend, and didn't tell me, and she knows that i trust her and stuff, but i don't want anything to do with it, or her, and i know i'm being selfish!" i starting crying then.
he put one arm around me, and kissed my forehead. "Shhh! it's okay!" he soothed me.
"Can i stay at your place tonight?" i asked, with cute, wet eyes.
"Yes, yes, sure! I see you packed already!" he smiled.
"Yep, i am coming...now!" i laughed.
He put me on his back, and gave me a piggy back to his house.
"Umm...Jason how did you know, something happened to me?" i asked.
"Because, i called you 7 times, and you normally answer on the 4th time, or more, or less! And when you didn't i new you weren't okay!" he smiled, "So where did you stay last night?" he asked, curiously.
"Umm...Andrews, lol, he made a bed up for me, and his mum was so nice!" i smiled, my way of telling him nothing happened, or was going to. Hmm? Maybe.
"Okay" he said, then pulled me into his bedroom.
"Oh, you cut down the tree outside, now you can see the river!" i said, then realized that someone was sitting by the river, with a man. Awww how romantic --wait a minute, THATS MUM!
"Crap, thats mum, with her boyfriend! Thats it, i am meeting him, now!" i said, angrily, then walked out the house.
I stormed down stairs, and over to the river, "MUM, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!?" I glared at her. Then at...him.
"Oh, Hannah, this is Phil!" she said, as if i wasn't angry.
"SO?" i said, then looked away, i felt like a bratty teenager.
"Hi, I'm Phil, nice to meet you!" he said, his voice was deep. a little too deep for my liking, and he was hairy, meaning long sideburns, and stuff.
"UH-HUH! NOT NICE TO MEET YOU!" i yelled, then ran back to Jason's house.
"What. you. should.not.have.done.that!" Jason said, looking down at me upset.
"Oh, that, you heard that!" i said, ashamed at myself.
"Who couldn't hear it, it was loud enough for people in France to hear!" he said then smiled.lol i said i was in France on the phone, gosh he is good.
"What the hell were you thinking, now you have no-where to go, except here!" he said, then smiled.
I started crying "Okay, so i know everything is my fault, but i don't care, i HATE everything!" then i went to the bathroom and cryed my eyes out.
What was i going to do? Where would i go? I couldn't live off people!
uhhh. Life sucks, and i am serious, it gets harder with age.
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