B.2 Chapter 13. Christmas already!?

Damn it, it was almost Christmas and i had completly forgotten. I decided it was time to apologise to Jason, it had been 3 days, and i really felt bad. I walked over, and knocked on the door.
Jason opened.
"I'm so sorry, i was harsh, i just had to tell you---" i said so fast. he cut me off.
"No, i'm sorry, i should have been more understanding"
"No, no"i said, then smiled.
This was slightly akward.
"Okay, well can we be friends? I mean I...I love you, but i understand you don't feel the same way" he looked sad after this.
"Awww Jason, I love you, but as a brother, i am sorry" i mumbled a little. this made me sad.
Poor Jason, awww. We WOULD be friends, and it would be okay.
"Umm, i'm sorry for beating up your boyfriend..umm..or whatever the relationship is between you is?" he blushed, and the sighed.
"Yeh, boyfriend" i blushed.
"Oh, alright then, there goes my plan" he smiled a sad smile.
"Aww sorry" i said, then after i was home, i slumped on the floor. and cryed.
My mobile rang, i answered, "Hey?"
"Hey honey, can i come over?" Andy;s voice said.
I chocked out, "Yes, sure!" i sounded more than sad, i sounded miserable.
"Aww, i better hurry, you are sad" he said, then i heard him running.
"Geez, andy you live 2 houses away, u dnt need to run!" i said.
In case u ahven't realized i was back home again, mum was engaged, and i stayed away from Phil.
"I know, i know, but it will mean i see you faster if i run!" he laughed.
I loved his laugh, it was so nice, like a happy public speaker. Mmmmm.
"Bye then!" i laughed then hung up.
He made me laugh.
I heard someone open the front door, and come upstairs, nex thing i new, andrew was sitting beside me on the floor. Gah. How does he do that.
I smiled at him. He moved closer, and then his lips were on mine, so warm and soft, just like his hands, i reckon he moistureizes. lol.
Then i heard little feet running up stairs, must be Sam, or we got a dog.
"Sammy!" Andy yelled, he was so good with my little bro, Jason, didn't ever know what to say to him, it was weird.
"Andy, hi!" Sam waved.
"Hey Sammy G! Can Hanny and Andrew have some privacy please?" i asked, then laughed. Sammy G? i dunno.
"OOOh, hannah wants to kiss you!" he said, then made kissy noises.
"SAM!" i laughed.
Andrew laughed too, "Yeah, and i wanna kiss her" he smiled at sam.
Sam giggled, then ran down stairs.
When i next opened my eyes Andy was kissing me. i kissed back.
Andrew invited me to his house for pizza and chips. it was really good.
"Thanks Danny!" i said, danny was Andrews mum, she was so cool, and a really great cook.
"No problem honey, your welcome to stay or eat here anytime!" she smiled, whoa she was pretty.
Andrew took my hand at the table, it was warm, and it felt soft, yes he must moistureize, or he has abnormally smooth hands. lol. Yes, i'm weird.
He whispered, "I Love you!"
I laughed, and his mum turned round and smiled at him, "Andrew, i have better hearing than you darling, and that was sweet!" she turned round and laughed. She had a slight portugiuez accent, it souded perfect for her. It just fitted well with her personality.
"Yeh" he blushed.
I laughed. Then we all laughed.
I went home, and took a shower, and washed my hair, i think i shall leave it curly, and put a clip in the side to move one side up. Just a little different. Not much. But i little.
I went over to Andrews the next day, he opened the door, "Wow, you look so beautiful with your hair curly, i like it striahgt and curly!" he smiled, then kissed me.
"Thanks, but it;s nothing much" i felt my face get hot. I always blushed at these things. Jess said they were cute, and made me prettier than normal, i just laughed.
"Wanna go christmas shopping?" he asked, then led me outside.
"Yes, i really need to" i answered.
Christmas eve was only one day away, and mum had put the tree up with Sam and Phil. Ewww Phil, he was going to spend christmas with us, grrr!
"Are you going to the college Christmas Dance?" he asked casually.
"Maybe" i said, hinting for him to ask me. It worked, or he was going to ask me anyway. either way yay.
"Will you go with me?" he asked, slowly, then smiled.
"Yes, i would love to" i smiled. I was probably blushing.
He kissed me, then we walked into the cute little gift store.
"OOhhh Andy look! It is perfect for mum" i smiled widley.
I had just found a pair f earings that she would love, they were just under my budget for one person's present, so i bought them. They were silver with 3 flowers haning off of the 3 silver stands they were meant to be vines. I would borrow them for the dance.lol.
Next we went into a toy store, "So Andy have you got your family's presents?" i asked.
"Yes, and i even got half of yours!" he smiled.
"Oh" i laughed, i said it slowly. Seeming suprised, as i was. God he was organized, unlike me little miss UNPERFECT!
He laughed. "Hey would Sam like this?" he pointed to a lego box. Sam loved Lego.
"Yes, thats perfect!" i smiled. And it was in my budget. I got it. Okay i would buy My friends and Boyfriend stuff tonight. I decied to get my friends things while i was out.
When i got home i kissed andrew goodbye and went to wrap my presents. Then it was time to get ready for the dance, crap. What should i wear, I know, The dark purple dress i wore for graduation is perfect. I tied my hair in a messy bun thing, and shoved some eyeshaddow and eyeliner and mascara on, then went to get my converse. Yay, i was ready.
Andrew turned up at my door with a purple flower, it had a clip on the back of it, aww he had brought me a hair thingo. Perfect it was what i needed.
I put it in my hair, it looked cute.
"I am glad your coming with me" he smiled as he said it.
"Why?" i asked.
"I love you" he laughed.
"I love you too" i smiled.
Then i saw Ben and Elouise turn up together. Jess and Dave, Mel and Thomas. Aww perfect, then i saw Jason...alone. Gah. It made me feel bad, i waved and ran up and hugged him.
"Sorry" i mumbled into his shirt.
"It's okay, and i'm sorry too" he said, he was holding something back. He knew something that i didn't. WHy did i feel so bad, when i saw him. Andrews bruise had gone, and his cuts had faided.
"Hannah, come on, we gotta go in now" he smiled at jason. Then pulle dmy hand inside.
It was a big room, with lots of balloons, and food, and drinks. There was a band. It started playing music. Jason wanted to dance, why was he making this harder than it was?
"I hope you know hannah, that i love you, so much" he said, then looked really glum. Poor Jason.
"kay" i said, damn it i was nervous.
"Well i just want to talk to you for a minute" he pulled me outside to talk.
"Well talk" i said, sounding a bit impatient.
He grabbed me and started kissing me. I pulled away, but he was too strong. I managed to get away to speak.
"WHAT THE HELL JASON!? seriously, this is asult, and also it is clearly not talking!" i was angry.
"I am so sorry, i couldn't help myself, i really love you!" he said, then smiled hopefully.
I walked away back to Andrews waiting arms. Uhh. He kissed me. God. I probably sound stupid but it was a firm, and strong protective kiss, like he really meant thay he loved me. He probably did, considering he does. I 'm so confussed. I love Andrew more than anything, but I still love Jason 5%. Great.
I danced with Andrew for the rest of the night, then i slept at his, in one of his big t-shirts and boxers. I slept in his bed. Then at about 8am my phone rang. I answered sleepily.
"Hello?" i said in a craoky voice.
"I am sorry!" said jaon apologeticly.
"Uhh. listen i understnad, and it;s okay, but for god's sake it;s bloody ealy!" i said.
"Well, i didn;t sleep i was worring that you hated me" he said, then sounded said, "I'm sorry"
"okay, thanks, it's okay, now please bye, i need sleep" i moaned at the end.
I went back to sleep straight away. When i wake up it's another day, and another time. SO i shall slept until then.

B.2 Chapter 12. More confusion...

I decided it was time to see Ellie, i hadn't seen her in about 3 weeks. Wow. I'm a great friend. Not.
I let myself in, she gave me a key. It was covered in smiley faces, she made it herself. Gosh.she was smart. Little miss Ellie Smarty Pants wins the mega trophy. Right. anyway.
I heard noises from upstairs, i walked up slowly. Hmm? weird. Ben and Ellie were still tight, and we rarely apart.
I walked into her room, I gasped.
"Umm..." i said, backing out, "Sorry....eh...er!" then i went to sit on the stairs.
I had just walked in on Ellie, and Ben having sex, Oh, my god! I must be whiter than a sheet of paper, coz i sure felt it.
3 minutes later Ellie walked out wearing his t-shirt, and boxers. What the hell, did he live her too?
"Ummm" she blushed, "Sorry about that!" she smiled.
"It's.....scary, but fine" i laughed.
she laughed, her giggly laugh, it was so cute. Very much like she is.
"Yeah, um, so how are you?" she asked, trying to change the subject.
"Oh, right, um, shocked, crappy, and life sucks!" i said, then hugged her. She hugged back.
"oh, whys you feels like thats?" i loved the way she spoke, it was so funny.
I smiled, "well my mum has a new boyfriend, he is horrible, they are engaged, and don't tell anyone this but i had sex with Andrew, so i don't know what to do" i started crying.
She rubbed my back, "Sex? Fiancee?........Wow" she smiled, Why did you....be naughty with andy pandy?" she asked swaying casually.
"We got drunk, Never drink Vondka" i said, then sighed.
There was silence for a while, i broke it.
"I think i'm in love with him" i said, then blushed.
She stared at me shocked, "WHAT!?"
"You.No.Jason. Love. Andrew. No.No.How?" she looked worried.
"I just do, we connect so well" i smiled. then blushed.
"Right, yes, thats true, but what about Jason?" she asked.
"Now you see my problem, I don't want to marry him" i blurted out.
"Oh, deary me" she sighed, "Life is harsh, and life is cruel, but there is always ways around things, even if they seem impossible!"
"mmm" i mumbled.
After i left, i saw Ben leave too.
I waved, he came over to me, "Hey hannah, it;s bee n so long since i've seen you!" he said.
"Yes, it has, sorry" i laughed.
"It's fine, i miss you though" he smiled. I hugged him, he hugged back.
I walked to Jess's house, i needed to see her too.
I knocked on the door, Dave answered, "Hey Hanny".
Jess appeared "HHAAAANNNNAAAHHHHH!" she screamed, and lept forward to hug me.
"JESS! how are you?" i asked.
" Great, look!" she showed me something on the floor.
"Oh, my god. You got a dog!" i yelled, "Whats it name?"
"Sammy, like your brother, i love that kid!" she smiled.
"Yes, so do i, that reminds me, i better go pick him up and take him to my grandparents house" i said, "Bye jess, and Dave".
I walked over to my new house, i got Sam and some of his clothes, and toys.
"Sam's staying at our grandparents for a while!" i yelled then took him to the car.
"Thankyou Hannah!" he smiled at me.
"No problem....Jam!" i laughed, he laughed too.
I put on the radio as we drove up, I was singing along, and sam was dancing.
As soon as i dropped Sam off, and told them one of my excuses, about him not seeing them for a while. I could tell that they new something was wrong. Whatever.
I went to Andrew i had to tell him. I had to.
I let myself in, the door was open, i heard his mum asking where the Vodka had went. She was just mumbling to herself.
"Hey Hannah, Thingo's in his room!" she laughed.
i laughed too. "Kay, thanks" i smiled.
I went up slowly thinking of what i could say.
I knocked, "Mmmm hmmm?" Andy asked.
"It's me, Hannah" i said, nervously. Maybe he didn't want to see me again!
"Yay, come in honey!" he said. Phew he did want to see me again. I was expecting a 'go away', or something.
I walked in, and sat on his bed, I crossed my legs.
"Sorry, for running out on you the other day" i said, then completly regreted saying that.
"Oh, it;s fine. " he laughed, "Are you gonna stay?" he asked, i could hear him trying to hide the begging in his voice.
"Yes, i shall" i smiled. He smiled back.
Suddenly his screen flashed a blue colour and i reached for the mouse to click it, but he did to, our hands touched, and we both blushed. lol. Akward-ness.
"Sorry" i mumbled.
He laughed. I moved closer to see what he was doing on the computer, he was msn-ing. lol.
"MSN!" i said in a weird voice. He laughed.
We both turned our heads to each other, we were so close. We just gazed into each others eyes for a minute, then he moved in closer. He kissed me, i kissed back, we ended up kissing for ages, and then i pushed it further, i moved my tounge to open his mouth, and he let me. YAY. we kissed and kissed, until i realized what i was doing.
I pulled away, i felt my face get hot, "Sorry" i said embarassed.
"I Love You" he said, then pulled me in again and kissed me more.
i got a breath, "What?" i asked stupidly.
He laughed. "I Love You" he said, then started playing with a lose stand of my hair.
I was silent for a long time. Andy loved me, and i love him.
"I love you" i said back, then felt guilty.
We smiled at each other.
"Hannah?" he asked.
"Yes?" i answered.
"I really do love you, and i want you to be mine, not Jason's, you deserve better than him, i'm sorry but you do!" he said, ashamed that he told me that.
"I know, and I really love you, and have for a while, but i was worried you wouldn't love me back! I don't want to marry jason, and i will tell him tonight!" i said, then fainted.
Blackout. Great. I think my body couldn't handle the thoughts.
it must have been 10 minutes later, i woke up and realized i was in Andy's bed. Right.
"Andy?" i asked. i was tired.
"Yes?" he asked, oh right he was beside me.
"What time is it?" i asked stupidly.
"Umm, 1:04am, lol, you fainted then fell asleep" he laughed.
"Right, sorry" i said, then laughed.
I then realized i was curled up with him, i moved over, then his hand pulled me back.
"Hey, your warm, stay!" he said, then muffled his laughter.
"Yes, sure, I love you" then i opened my eyes shocked, "Uhh.Umm....." i trailed off.
He laughed, " I told you i love you more!" he smiled, i could just seem him.
He kissed me. I shouldn't be doing this but i kissed him back.
"I guess i will tell Jason tomorrow" i laughed, "I mean today" i laughed again, mostly at my stupidity.
The next day, i went over to Jason's.
"Hey hon-" he stopped, and realized i had to tell him something, "What is it babe?" he asked.
"Umm, okay, don't get mad" i said, then my eyes started to water a bit. I was going to brake his heart.
"awww, babe" he rubbed my back.
"I, I....I'm in love with Andrew, and i can't marry you!" i said then slide the ring off my finger, I held onto it tight.
He looked startled and shocked, "WHAT!?"
I was silent. I cryed some more.
"Right, okay, fine, i always thought you were strange, and couldn't make choises, well you can but just not good ones!" He yelled, he was mad, damn it.
"Well i'm sorry, but i can't help it, i really loved you, but then i loved Andy more" i said, starting to cry some more.
"Well, he is no good for you, he is a gaybo!" he yelled.
"WHAT THE HELL! you r the gaybo, you big noob. Don't you dare insult my best friend!" i yelled back at him.
"Oh, your best friend" he used the hand signs., "You meant secret boyfriend!"
"Get lost, i hate you Jason, your a really horrible guy, i thought you were different!" i said, then through the ring at him and stormed off crying.
I went to the bus stop, i got on the next bus, i didn't know where i was going or if i would come back, i glanced back at Jason. He was in so much pain. Before the bus left, i got off again. It was stupid to run away. I went to the river, i fell asleep there, and when i woke up, i heard people shouting my name it was Andrew.
"Over here!" i yelled.
"Hey!" he smiled.
Oh, andrew had been beaten up punched, he now had a black eye, and a cut face.
"What happened?" i asked. i got up and hugged him.
"Jason, almost killed me, He really loves you, you should Marry him!" he said, he was trying to be nice.
"No, that jerk can piss off, he was so mean to me!" i said, then started crying, this was all my fault, and i hated myself for it.
"Hannah?" he asked, "Will you be my girlfriend?"
"Did you even have to ask, of course i will, i love you more than anything!" i smiled,
SO i had a boyfriend, and i loved him. I had made Jason almost kill Andrew, and i had also made Andrew hurt. Great, back to quare one, my like sucks.

B.2 Chapter 11. I missed that, what?

Since we had finished school, i had no worried of work or anything. I just needed to get into my studying for college, meh, i'll do it later. Maybe.
I woke up, "Andrew?" i looked around. I found him, he was under me.
He yawned, "Hey!" he said.
I jumped off of him. opps! poor him, i had been sleeping here for a couple of days, considering Jason had mysteriously disappeared, okay thats a slight exageraion, basically i am mad at him, he kinda ditched me. Meh it happens lots. You do get used to it.
"Umm, sorry for rolling onto you again!" i said, then felt my face get hot.
"Oh, it's alright" he laughed. Probably at the colour i was, or how i looked.
I went to the bathroom, i looked alright, he had let me use the shower, so i was in an okay condition. And anyways, i was only 2 houses away from mum, eww, i hate Phil.
I missed mum, but i couldn't live if he was there. I better go get sam, and take him to the River for a play.
"I'm gonna take Sam to the river" i said.
"Sure, make sure you come back, or i will miss you! stay forever!" he smiled.
"Haha, yes i might just do that!" i smiled my big grin.
I took Sam to the river, he never let go of me
"Hannah! I miss u a lot. Come back! please." he begged, awww not the eyes! No anything but the eyes!!!
"Oh, Sam i just can't, i don't like him, but i have to be happy for mummy" i said.
"Well, he is scary, and i don't like him, not one bit!" he said, then folded his arms.
"Why? what has he done to you!" i looked angry.
"He is nice when mummy is around, then she leaves the room, and he is mean, and makes me feel bad." he started crying.
I hugged him, and wiped his tears away. There was noway this could go no, i had to tell mum.
I took Sam back, after he was happy again.
I put him in his room, and he started playing with dinasour toys.
I heard a scream from down stairs. Oh, my god! i started running down.
I found mum hugging Phil, i looked away and gagged.
"HANNAH! I'M ENGAGED!" she screamed happily.
Great, there goes my great plan, poop.
"Oh, joy" i said, in a very sarcastic tone.
"HEY, hannah, you should be happy for your mother and I" he said, then mum turned to me, and he glarded at me.
Crap, he was really bad.
"Mum, I....." i trailed off, coz he was making scary signs. I don't even wanna think about what he meant.
"Yes?" she asked looking confused.
I turned and went to Jason's.
"THEY'RE ENGAGED!?" Jason said, unhappily.
"Yes, now can i ask you, where the hell were you?" i said, the looked at him sadly.
"Umm, a few mates called me over, sorry darling!" he said, then took my hands in his.
We kissed a little.
"So are you gonna stay here? or where else?" he asked.
"I have been staying at Andrews, but i guess i could stay here for a while, if i'm aloud" i said, then smiled.
I called andrew and told him i would be staying at Jason's tonight, he was alright with it.
That night, Jason grabbed me and pulled me onto the bed. He started kissing me, i kissed back. I laughed a couple of times, he slowly moved his hands down my back to my lower back, and just before my bum. He pulled me tighter to him, and we were so close. We rolled around on the bed for a while, just makingout. Then his mum walked in, i had my top off, and he had his off too.
"Oh, um, sorry, Jason wheres your washing?" she said, refusing to let herself turn the light on.
"Londry, mum, some privacy?!" he said, embarassed.
She left, then i rolled over onto my side.
I giggled.
He smiled, i could see in the dark my eyes had ajusted.
"I think we should have sex" he said, then rolled over to face me, he put his hand around my waist.
I was silent for a long time, he cleared his throught.
"Umm, stop pressuring me!" i said, then rolled of the bed, i sat on his computer chair.
"Can we?" he urged.
"Uh!" i stormed out the room.
I ran to Andrews.
He opened the door, "Whats wrong?" he asked.
i started panicing, crap i couldn't tell him.
"It's okay, whatevers wrong!" he hugged me.
I calmed down. Alright, i just ran away from a guy that said 'Lets have sex', wait he wasn't just a guy, he was my Fiancee. opps!
I sat on his living room couch, "Ummm, where's your mum?" i asked.
"Umm, she's out partying, so why can too!" he smiled cheeky.
"Umm...." i laughed.
"Oh, look there is some vodka in the cupboard, hmm? maybe we should try some!" he smiled again.
"Alright, sure thing, babe!" i winked, gosh we were silly.
he poured 2 glasses, and handed me one.
i took a sip, "Wow it;s bloody strong!" i said, i walked over and put some water in both our drinks.
"Yes"
After a glass, we were drunk, but we finished the bottle, opps! Everything seemes weird.
"Hannah, come here!" Andy said.
I walked over, "Yes? sugar puff" i smiled.
"Your really pretty, can i have you?" he asked.
Looks like he let his feelings out, "Yes, baby take me now!" i yelled.
He grabbed me, and suddenly his lips were on mine, they were warm, and soft, made me feel hole again.
Just then i felt his tounge push my mouth open, oh crap! what am i doing? Oh well. Mmm. i like it. Wait, oh god, i am really drunk. shoot!
He grabbed my hand and pulled me to his room.
"Where are we going andy pandy?" i said, i sounded so weird.
"Bed, sexy." he said. he laughed.
He shut his door, then took his shirt off. Whoa either i was blind, or he was great looking with his shirt off. I then took mine off. He held me closer than normal. then started kissing me again.
He took my pants off, then his, i heard his open a packet then slip something on, haha a condom.
"Sex?" i asked.
"mmm, anything you want" he said.
he grabbed my put me on the bed, then somehting happened, i felt a weird feeling down below. Crap his penis was in me. Ahhhh. okay stop panicing.
We did this same pattern for about 25 minutes, then we just kissed under the covers. Then we must have both conked out, and fallen asleep. This was going to be bad in the morning.
The next thing i new, was the sun coming through the curtains. Uhhh. so bright. Owch my head is so sore.
"Uhh." i yawned. I got to get out of bed, then i realized, oh, my god! I was naked. Ahh i ran and out my clothes on.
When i came back Andrew was sitting under the covers, i gave him pants.
I blushed. Then he blushed.
Then i realized, shoot! i had just cheated on Jason. Oh, my god! i really liked Andrew. What was i going to do?!
"I'm sorry!" we both said at the same time.
"Vondka makes us strange" he said, then smiled.
"I have to go" i said, then ran out the door, to the river.
I sat on the opposite side than normal, and cryed my eyes out, i was so confussed and lost my virginity to my best friend. Crap, how was i going to get through this, i love him. I now realize that Jason is nothing compared to Andrew. The same night that my fiancee wants sex i have sex with my best friend. Shoot. What on earth was i going to do? I was in love with Andrew, and i think he was in love with me.

B.2 Chapter 10. Homeless

I decided to go home, it had been 4 days since i yelled at her at the river, so now it was time to sleep in my own bed, as much as i enjoyed sleeping in Jason's. He was so warm, mmmm good memories.
As i walked back to my house, i recondized the car, it was the one mum came home in from her date in. Grr, he's here. I would never like him, no matter what.
I walked in and slammed the door, trying to make a dramatic enterance. But, nothing.
I sighed.
Then i heard horrible noises from the living room, it was mum kissing him. Yuk! there is nothing worse than seeing ur parents kiss, WAIT he isn't my dad, so this was worse.
I cleared my throught, and mum pulled away and looked at me.
"Yes?" she said, snapping the word at me.
I said nothing.
"Oh the silent treatment, i see!" she said, then walked upstairs.
After she was gone, Phil looked at me, "You know, i HAVE to like you, but i don't. You seem, not a girly girl, the type of daughter i want, so i won't accept you" he said, then glared at me.
Oh, my god, he was horrible.
"Well, i don't care, because your not welcome here!" i said angrily.
"your a brat, and i'm gonna make your life hell!" he said evily.
"Well, good luck with that!" i snapped.
Mum walked back through. "Hannah, are you going to stay here?" she asked nicely, in a kind motherly way.
I pointed to him.
"No, he isn't staying here!" she snapped.
I nodded, then walked up stairs. I plonked my bag on the floor, and then put a washing on.
My mind started to wonder, what if i never spoke to mum again, what is she marriied him, and what if i was stuck with him. What did he mean 'Make my life hell'? as if it wasn't already. Then i realized i was sobbing again. Stupid me. i better stop this.
Mum sighed in the door wat, "Honey, i really do llove you, but can you please be happy for me?" then she realized i was crying. she came over to put her arm around me, i moved back, and away.
"Oh, sorry" she said, then walked away.
That night, i slept terribly. The wind was loud, the branch was scratching at my window. and i was cold, and i was mostly thinking those same words over and over again in my head. 'I will make your like hell'.
When the sun rose, i was lying on my bed, crying. again.
"Hannah, breakfast, c'mon honey bunny, come get some!" she yelled up.
"Uhhh." i moaned then walked downstairs.
When i walked into the kitchen he was sitting at the table.
"I'M NOT HUNGRY!" i yelled, in a croasky voice, then ran back upstairs.
That guy was a jerk! I couldn't, i wouldn't let mum stay with him. But what could i do. she wouldn't believe me.
I got changed into a red pair of skinny;s and my black converese, and i shoved on a black elmo top. i then put on a black cardy, and got my bag, and shoved clothes in, enough clothes for a month, then i got my handbag, and toiletry's and left the house running. When i turned the corner of my gate, something grabbed my arm. It was Sam.
"Hannah! STAY NOW! i never see you anymore, and i love you, so please stay with me!" he started to cry. then i started too.
"I won't be gone long, i...i...i just need to get away!" i said sadly.
"But, i'm scared" he said, then hugged me.
"Why?" i asked, suddenly curious.
"Phil, he is mean, and he doesn't like you, and he is scary!" sam said, in a cute voice.
"Oh, my, well i promice i shall come back for you soon!" i said, then hugged him tight.
Thats it, he can hurt me all he wants, but if he hurts Sam. oh boy he would be in trouble. And if he touches mum, oh my god. he better run.
I walked up to Mel's house, i hadn't seen her in a while.
"Hey Mel" i greeted her, then i saw Bethany, aww she was getting big now.
"Hey, oh,my god, whats wrong, you look a mess, sorry to say!" she smiled apologeticly.
"Oh, family issues, nothing much!" i said, then looked around for thomas.
"Thomas is at work" she laughed, proabbly feeling grown up.
Then she flashed me a shiny ring on her left hand.
"Noway! he proposed!" i said happily. Mel was so happy. Lucky biatch. lol.
"Yes, yes, and yes!" she screamed.
"Aww! I'm so happy for you!" i said.
After i left, i went to Jason's, he saw me with my bag, bigger and fuller this time.
"Wanna stay?" he asked, and before i could answer he was kissing me.
"Yes" i said, "The new guy, is so mean, he is scaring Sam!" i said angrily.
"Oh, thats no good!" he said, then led me up stairs.
I put my bag, next to his cupboard.
"Mind, if i go over and see Andrew?" i asked, then smiled.
"No, no, just be back soon, so i don't die of missing you!" he kissed me, then waved bye.
When i got to Andrews, his mum saw me first, and came out and hugged me, "Oh Hannah, whats wrong?" she asked, worriedly.
"Oh, just...family stuff." i said, then looked at the ground.
"Oh, well come come in!" she gestured towards the kitchen,where Andy was sitting.
"Andy!" i yelled as i saw him.
He looked up" Hannah, aww honey, are you okay?" he hugged me.
"No, not really, Life is harsh, and it hates me, i'm sure!" i said, then started crying a little, i held it back. He saw this.
"Want a coffee?" he asked.
"Yes, that would be great!" i said.
"Kay sure thing"
i liked Andy he always new exactly what i needed and what i wanted, and how to cheer me up.
He handed me a nice warm cup full, "Oh, thanks!" i said.
"No problem, it's what you deserve!" he smiled.
"No, what i deserve is a good beating!" i said, then looked down, to the marble floor.
"Shhhh! you do not\" he said, defencivly.
He walked me to the gate, then i kissed him on the cheek.
"Thanks, for everything" i smiled.
"It's kay, and thanks for coming, i miss you, when you not here!" he blushed.
I smiled, my big grin, it felt good.
I felt rather homeless right now, i was always living off of people, gosh, i am such an idiot!
I wonder how Sam was.
The sun was setting and i decided to watch it with Jason, but Jason had gone out with his friends, so i asked Andrew, he said yes, and we sat on the bench. It felt different sitting with Andrew, he held my hand, in a friendly way, but his hand was a bit sweaty, i think he was nervous. and he was blushing.
"Are you okay?" i asked.
"Yes, yes" he choked out.
"No, seriously, tell me!" i let go of his hand.
"Umm.....i, oh it;s nothing!" he said, then i walked him home
"Wanna stay, or what?" he asked.
"Umm, no, i shall sleep at Jason's but thanks for the offer" i smiled.
He smiled, then went inside.
I walked up the main street, it was cold, and dark, i stopped at the allyway, where jess had clearly said 'No, don't go down there, people get hurt!'. Hmm? maybe thats what i need, a good beating. I started to walk down the allyway, when a person started walking up just down from me. The feeling of fright started in my stomache. Maybe i should turn and run, nah it was too late now.
"Hey, baby!" a mans voice said.
Oh crap! i am about to be raped. Or maybe not.
I said nothing.
He grabbed me, then kissed me, i pulled away.
"Eww creep, get off me!" i yelled.
"No, darlin' your hot! and i want you!" he said, clearly he was drunk. Or a hobbo.
I started walking backwards, then he grabbed my jacked, and started un doing the buttons.
i slapped his hand away.
"Oh a firey personality, i see, i like that in a women" he smiled.
"BACK OFF!" said, a voice i reconized. It was andrew.
"ANDREW!" i yelled, then andrew kicked the man, and broke his nose with one quick movement.
"Owch!" the man groaned, then feel over.
Andrew grabbed my hand, and pulled me out the allyway.
"Thanks!" i said.
"No problem, now...WHAT WERE YOU DOING DOWN THERE!?" he said, worriedly.
"Nothing, i was just wondering!" i looked down.
"Well" he stopped, then hugged me, "You look cold!" he said.
"I am" i said.
He walked me to Jason's he still wasn't in, where was he?
i got my bag, and went to stay at Andrews.
"YAY! your stayng here!" he said, then smiled.
"yes, i'm kinda hppy here!" i smiled back.
We sat on his bed talking for ages, then i fell asleep on him, opps!
I felt him rubbing my hair of of my face, then stroking my cheek, why was he doing this?
I opened my eyes, he was there under me, well half.
"Hello, again!" i said.
"Hi" he smiled.
"Do you want me to move?" i asked, embarassed.
"No, you can sleep it's fine" he smiled. I think he liked me. and i think i like him.
Oh dear, i think i liked him more that Jason, he was nicer, and funnier, and basicaly a nicer person.
I lay back, onto his chest, and then i fell asleep, he did too.
This was my happy place, but i couldn't stay here forever. Unfortunetly.

B.2 Chapter 9. Just forget my feelings!

Geez, what what is wrong with the world, seriously. I mean it;s either freezing like today, or too hot. Stupid weather, why can;t it just be like sims2 weather, it is light, then night, not cold or warm, just perfect.

I walked down stairs, "Hi mum!" i said, then smiled stupidly. I was in a weird mood, not quiet myself.

She was on the phone, Hmm?

She saw me and said "Oh, sorry darling, i gotta go now, bye!" then she hung up.

Darling!? riight.

"Who was that?" I asked curiously.

"Oh, just Sue, how are you?" she asked. clearly changing the subject.

"Fine, but very curious..." i starded towards the coffee table, she had notes all over it. "What are they...for?" i asked, what was mum up to?

"Uhh. Nothing, can you wacth Sam tonight? I'm going out with Daine." she asked, with a smile. Daine? never heard it before, hmm? maybe sue's friend.

"Kay, sure" DAMN, i wanted to go out tonight, with friends, hmm? maybe they could come over, and party with Sam, haha, lol, i crack myself up.

When mum left that night, she looked really pretty, glamorously dressed in a nice black dress, and makeup, and jewellery.

"Wow, you look lovely!" i said, then smiled. "Turn around, let me see you!"

Mum laughed. Then i laughed. She went outside and drove off.

"SAM, WHERE ARE YOU?" i yelled.

"Here, boo!" he said, from under the table, awww.

"I SEE YOU!" i said, then the door opened. WHAT!

I grabbed Sam and put him on my back, "Hello, who is it?" what a stupid question to ask.

"Uhh...The Evil fairy" Ellie, said, then Sam screamed. Opps!

"Oh, sorry sam, it;s just me Ellie!" she said, then grabbed him and spun him around.

"Again, again!" Sam said.

"Umm..maybe later, i think spongebob's on!" she said, then he watched that.

"Hey ellie" i said.

"Hey hey hey, supp, supp, ma hommie?" she said, then put her cap on backwards. I laughed.

I loved Ellie, she was so funny, and nice, we got on so well, we were like sisters.

"I thought i would come see you!" she smiled.

"Yay, i like my age company as much as 5 year olds" i smiled back.

"RIGHT SAM, BED TIME!" i said loudly.

"No, i wanna stay up with Ellie, and you!" he said, then rubbed his eyes. He was so tired.

"Well, me and Ellie are going to sleep in ur room!" we said, then ran upstairs.

"WAIT FOR ME!" sam yelled up the stairs.

We sat next to him, and pretended to sleep, then he fell asleep. Ellie left after that, and i went into my room.

I played My chemical Romance loudly quiet, so that i didn't wake sam up. After the cd had finished, i got ready for bed, then i sat on my bed, and just sat there thinking, about everything.

After about 5 minutes, i heard a car pull up, it must be mum, yay. i can go to bed. lol.

Then i heard a laugh, and it wasn;t mums, i peeked out my window. WHO WAS THAT!?

"Oh, Harry, I LOVE YOU!" i heard mum say loudly, then they kissed lots, and i looked away...eww gross, mum kissing some man, i would have to talk to her about this, but maybe in the morning, it sounded like she was a little drunk.

Then it hit me. MUM WAS DATING SOMEONE, PLUS SHE DIDN'T TELL ME! AND I DIDN'T WANT ANY OTHER MAN IN MY LIFE, EXPECIALLY NOT, LIVING AS A FAMILY.

The next morning i didn't get up, i stayed in bed, until it must have been about 1pm, coz mum came through. Great, just ther person i need right now. Uhhh.

"Honey bunny, get up now!" she said, then walked away.

just before she left my room, i said, " NO" then i turned my back to the room, and faced the wall.

"YES, NOW!, i think there is someone at the door for you!" she said.

"I DON'T CARE!" i was in a terrible mood today.

She left, then I sighed. I got up and and went to the door, in my emily the strange pj's, and socks. Before i opened the door, i looked in the mirror, i looked presentable, lol.

I opened the door, and there was Andrew standing there.

".........hi." i said, then looked down.

"umm....hello, are you alright, and tut tut, your still in bed" he joked.

I laughed. "No, i'm feeling rather crap, actually." i sighed.

"Oh, well wanna talk about it in a min?" he said. he knew i would want to change.

"Yeah, wait here!" i said, then ran up stairs.

I put on a skirt, and a blue top, it said, 'Hey, I'm lame, deal!'. I thought it was the right top for my mood today, which was, i hate my life, and i am a lame-oo.

I ran downstairs and went to the river with Andrew.

"So whats the problem?" he asked kindly.

"Umm...I think my mum has a boyfriend..." it started then, what i mean is the sobbing.

He patted my back, and rubbed the tears off of my cheek, "Thanks!" i said, then kept walking.

"No problem, you know....umm..this might sound lame, but i think your my best friend!" he said, then smiled.

"Umm, well your my guy bestie" i said. he had managed to change the subject. Woop! go andrew.

When i got home, and Sam was in bed, i went through to mum in the living room, she was eating cheese-puffs. Mmm, they smelt good.

"Right, you have some explaning to do!" i said, then glared at her.

"Oh, umm..about what?" she asked, understanding ever so slightly what i was meaning.

"ABOUT THE....UMM...THING, YOU KISSED HIM LAST NIGHT, AND IT LOOKS TO ME LIKE YOUR GOING OUT!" i yelled.

"Shhh, don't wake sam!"

"OH I WILL WAKE SAM, BECAUSE I AM NOT JUST MAD, I AM FURIOUS!" i was getting her good here. she had no explanations.

"Umm....well...you see.." she trailed off, waiting for my next screaming sestion.

"YOU SEE-NOTHING! I DON'T WANNA HEAR IT, I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WOULDN'T TELL ME, AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHH!" i stormed off, out the house.

I didn't know where i was going, or what i was doing, but i went to the river, and sobbed my heart out. I had justed yelled at my mother, fot selfish reasons, and i didn't care, i was sad, because i didn't want another guy in my family, enless for me. More selfishness. I HATE MYSELF!

At about midnight, i wandered to andrews house, and when he opened the door, he gasped "Oh Hannah, what happened, you don't look happy!" he said, then grabbed me for a hug. I hugged back, he was warm, and it was so cold.

"I....I...hate everything" i said. then tears burst out over my eyes and flooded down my face.

"Awww, surely not everything, i mean you don't hate me!" he said, then smiled. When he laughed it shook down his body, and i felt it.

"Yeah," i laughed.

He made a bed for me at the side of his bed, and i slept there. Mum knew that if i didn;t come home, when i was mad, i was probably at a friends, but right now, all i cared about was...well NOTHING.

"Morning...might i add...sleeping beauty!" he smiled at me.

"Mmmmmorrrninggg!" i said, wow, that was the first time i had spoken properly in the morning since i was 11.

"What do you want to eat?" he asked. "Cereal, toast?"

"Umm.....a coffee?" i laughed.

"Yeah, sure, i want one too!" he smiled.

"Thanks..eh..for everything, accomodation, food, life coach, and comforting!" i smiled my big grin.

We laughed. He then suddenly picked me off the floor, and hugged me.

"Aww Hannah, Your the nicest, and funniest girl i've ever met!" he hugged so tightly.

"Can't....breath!" i gasped. "Tha....nkkss!"
"Oh, sorry" then he let go.
I laughed, then we ate toast together at his kitchen table, his house had such a nice feel to it.
"Umm..you know, your house is so nice!" i said, then smiled over the table. "And you too"
"yeh, i like it!" he smiled back.
I diceded to go home after that and change and stuff, but i wouldn't speak to mum. No.Matter.what.
I walked in, Sam hugged me, "Hey Sam!" i said, then went upstairs.
I changed into an aqua blue pair of jeans, and a new top, it was grey. It was covered in black paterns. Then i put on my blue converse.
I grabbed my handback, and purse, phone, keys, brush, toothbrush, a new top, and socks. and undies. I put them in my 'opsta' black bag. 'opsta' was my favourite brand of stuff. It was kinda rock/punk chick stuff. I also put some deoderant in the bag, i wouldn't want to be smelly.lol.
On my way to the bridge, i called Jason.
"Hey, where are you?" he asked panicly.
"France!" i laughed. "Nah, i am at the bridge! come meet me!" i said, then hung up.
10 minutes later Jason arrived, yum he smelt so good. Hmm? oh it was the birthday persent i gave him, yummy. We kissed.
"Hey babe!" he said, "Right, tell me...what the hell happened?" he asked, looking at me sadly.
"Hi, umm..I am not speaking to mum, coz she has a boyfriend, and didn't tell me, and she knows that i trust her and stuff, but i don't want anything to do with it, or her, and i know i'm being selfish!" i starting crying then.
he put one arm around me, and kissed my forehead. "Shhh! it's okay!" he soothed me.
"Can i stay at your place tonight?" i asked, with cute, wet eyes.
"Yes, yes, sure! I see you packed already!" he smiled.
"Yep, i am coming...now!" i laughed.
He put me on his back, and gave me a piggy back to his house.
"Umm...Jason how did you know, something happened to me?" i asked.
"Because, i called you 7 times, and you normally answer on the 4th time, or more, or less! And when you didn't i new you weren't okay!" he smiled, "So where did you stay last night?" he asked, curiously.
"Umm...Andrews, lol, he made a bed up for me, and his mum was so nice!" i smiled, my way of telling him nothing happened, or was going to. Hmm? Maybe.
"Okay" he said, then pulled me into his bedroom.
"Oh, you cut down the tree outside, now you can see the river!" i said, then realized that someone was sitting by the river, with a man. Awww how romantic --wait a minute, THATS MUM!
"Crap, thats mum, with her boyfriend! Thats it, i am meeting him, now!" i said, angrily, then walked out the house.
I stormed down stairs, and over to the river, "MUM, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!?" I glared at her. Then at...him.
"Oh, Hannah, this is Phil!" she said, as if i wasn't angry.
"SO?" i said, then looked away, i felt like a bratty teenager.
"Hi, I'm Phil, nice to meet you!" he said, his voice was deep. a little too deep for my liking, and he was hairy, meaning long sideburns, and stuff.
"UH-HUH! NOT NICE TO MEET YOU!" i yelled, then ran back to Jason's house.
"What. you. should.not.have.done.that!" Jason said, looking down at me upset.
"Oh, that, you heard that!" i said, ashamed at myself.
"Who couldn't hear it, it was loud enough for people in France to hear!" he said then smiled.lol i said i was in France on the phone, gosh he is good.
"What the hell were you thinking, now you have no-where to go, except here!" he said, then smiled.
I started crying "Okay, so i know everything is my fault, but i don't care, i HATE everything!" then i went to the bathroom and cryed my eyes out.
What was i going to do? Where would i go? I couldn't live off people!
uhhh. Life sucks, and i am serious, it gets harder with age.